The magic button.

NP: WINGER – MILES AWAY (*such a nostalgic song. Brings back the most wonderful memories…*sigh* )


HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I know, I know! Way too long without a single post! I apologize, I know how annoying it’s for you readers to read the same thing for over 2 months! Again, I’m awfully sorry.

The truth is, I’VE BEEN MISTREATEEEEEEEEEEEEED - hehehehehehehe, sorry, that was some Malmsteen to cheer me up ^^. The REAL truth is, I’ve been let down. I’ve been so sad and busy that I don’t have - or don’t want to have - time for anything else. It’s as if inertia is my best company and I love being around it, as much as it loves being around me these days. It’s terrible, but I’m being sincere. Mind you, I don’t like it, but it’s as if I’m forced to live this moment this way.

I’ve been doing my best to cheer up though! I’ve been having constant meetings with friends, I’ve been trying to plan new activities and I even have a brand-new device: a ‘fuck off’ button I push when I’m really fed up (it is usually and very often used in the office, btw! :P). Even work seems to be getting a tiny bit better. :O

I know I’m recognized to be the one who always sees the bright side of life and cheers up the other people, but I stumble in my own feet sometimes. It’s not possible to live in perfect heaven everyday; sometimes I do fall over some rough thorns and they hurt the same for everybody.

I must tell you that I’ve been trying to grab some fun out of anything I do, even if I have to go a bit too far, or spend a bit too much. Easter was great (hope it was great for all of you), and I treated myself with a few huge and very delicious expensive chocolates – all gone now. I don’t care they were expensive, they completely surpassed my expectations and I’d get them all over again if I had to (or had the money again to! :P). Bad points: too expensive, got fatter and had to listen to my dad lecturing about money and how I don’t value it! *fuck off button on*. Good points: the money is mine, the chocolates were mine and they made me happy even if for a moment. At least my sadness was gone and completely forgotten until they ended.

However, there are things that don’t seem to be as much fun when you look at them at first, but once you live them they seem perfect! Yesterday I was out with some friends to celebrate their engagement. We were 5 people and the quantity (and quality!) of nonsense spoken was unbelievable! I was not much happy to go at first, but once I was there it paid off.

Today was another good surprise. We went to celebrate my friend’s wedding (no, not the same friend of Saturday night. Yep, all my friends are getting married! :D) and we were 6 people. One of them I haven’t seen since the 8th grade (13 years ago, that is), and yet it was wonderful! Again the quantity and quality of baloney spoken was amazing, only this time it was very nostalgic. My gods, those are my oldest friends! We have so much to tell, so much to talk about and so much to remember. There’s so much we’ve lived together, and there’s so much we’ve missed from each other’s lives. It was wonderful to meet and talk again. It was as if we haven’t changed at all. We might look a little different from what we were, but we’re still great friends. We know each other, we care about what happened in our lives and we all hate the fact we’ve lost so much by staying away from each other for so long.

It’s good to know you still know the people who are part of your history. It’s good to know there’ll always be someone there for me, even if we don’t talk for ages. It’s good to remember, and it’s good to know that even if I have amnesia, someone will be there to remind me about the coolest things I’ve ever lived in life!

Those are the moments I cherish the most and I’ll sure keep in my heart forever. This is the family I don’t want to lose even if I’m too far. It’s moments like this that make me believe there’s a light in the ‘astral hell’ tunnel that keeps the flame within me lit up. That’s due to moments like this I push my ‘fuck off’ button and realize I don’t have to worry about anything. Good or bad, it shall pass and all that will remain will always be the best moments.


‘The loneliness just fades away
Thoughts of you just memories
No crying now for what we're missing
Time won't forget what you meant to me’