Weird days go by...

THURSDAY – 14/07/05
NP: MASTERPLAN – ‘INTO THE LIGHT’

Hi all, how have you been?
I’ve been alright, but right now I’m very sleepy. Just came backi from my lunch at the park and all that sun made me lazy and sleepy. Aye, Ana mood on! =P

I can’t take my job anymore; it’s really getting on my nerves. Because of that I have huge herpes on my lips due to a lack of body resistance and energy. That’s the easy bit though, since it’ll go away soon. The rest is more complicated and takes more time to go away, like the job itself!!!

I believe that every way of getting to know yourself better is worth learning. Almost 2 years ago I started some self-knowledge courses, or whatever you call it. I’ve studied (and still do – in fact I plan to study this forever!) witchcraft, druidism, Celtic shamanism, astrology, oracles, got to know the powerful animal within me and now I’m into tarot. Everyday I wake up and thank myself for having the great idea of learning all those things. I’m a much better and understanding person than I was 2 years ago.

So today, during my lunch, I’ve decided to play with my tarot set. I played 2 games (the Cross method – which allows me to know ‘yes or no’ answers for my questions). I asked ‘am I going to resign within 9 months?’ and then ‘am I going to find a job in Europe that fulfills me within 9 months?’... I need some help from my teacher, but in both games 2 cards came out: ‘the tower’ and ‘the sun’. The tower is the most feared card of the tarot; it’s the one which brings the most structured things into ruins. The sun is the other way around; it’s the card that reaches goals and realizes all one wants. Now… HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO READ THAT??? =P

EPISODE: Entering the underground parking lot in the morning and literally going into the dark, Masterplan started to play ‘into the light’ on the radio. Am I living something I shouldn’t? Am I doing it all wrong? Cause that’s the message I understood. =P

Ps: Oh, btw!!! Remember the dream about me breast-feeding the 2 babies? Yeah, I’ve been thinking about it and it could mean that I’m feeding 2 new dreams – leaving work and going to Europe. Are dreams also some sort of oracle? =O As far as I know, yes, they are! Hm, maybe that’s what all the sex in my dreams means then – hard work before the dreams come true! ^^=P

PS2: I want to the dedicate this song to Ness, as we’re always talking about our problems and how we handle them, and sometimes it’s just unbearable and all we need to do is wait the right moment to come out of the cave (remember the story, Ness? :) Love ya! :-*)

‘Send me a message in case you understand
Be sincere about it - this is for real
You feel this aversion to life
Fear and loathing - the weight of the world
It will all fade away

Now we climb up to a place - where the beauty is everlasting
Our will as unshakeable as the rock beneath our naked feet
I hardly know you - face to face
On the brink of the grave I won't persuade you

Like the snowflake we will fly
A dying dance - a silent cry
We're at the peak now
Face to face on the brink of the grave
Don't turn around now

To step into the light
Falling down
To step into the light
Falling down

Let the moment arrive with no more tears to cry
The spirit will wave goodbye
And step into the light
To step into the light
Falling down
To step into the light
Falling down’


FRIDAY – 15/07/05
NP: LOUIS ARMSTRONG – THE ENTIRE ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND AGAIN….

OMG!!!
Here I am at work listening to my boss’ albums. Today she thought she could bring all her cds, so we’d stop listening to the radio for a while.

Since she’s a spoilt bitch, she also thought we’re all fans of the kind of music she loves. Okay, I really appreciate Louis Armstrong, I really do! Blues in general is awesome, but let’s agree it’s not the kind of music to listen after 2 huge crèpes for lunch!!!

I’m gonna fall asleep any minute now, and I don’t want a stupid soul annoying me if that happens!!! In fact I get too cranky when I’m sleeping and people wake me up! =P

But it’s a weird day anyway. I woke up at 7:40 (I usually wake up at 6:40 – but the alarm clock never rang!), did all I had to do in a hurry and arrived at work only 10 minutes late! Yep, I was at work by 8:40, so I woke up, had a quick shower, breakfast and drove to work all in one hour!!! That’s definitely my record…

Well, I’m really in a bad and sleepy mood today (although I did have some laugh attacks earlier ^^), so I’ll end this post before I… zzzZzzzzzzZzzzZzzzzZzzzzZzzzZzzzzZzzZzzzZzZzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ *SNORE*

Quadruple post! Yeah, net's been tricking me...

Friday - 01/07/05
Title: The forbidden fruit.
NP: silence... *writing from work* =P

Backi! Yes, again! And I need vacation! Heeh, it’s such an annoying job. I won’t complain much as I feel fine about my job today, but I definitely want a better one. Ah, whatever, I’ll leave soon anyway…

I wanna talk about nothing today, so I’ll talk about dreams. I dreamt of Tutu last night =). He was in Sampa to make a concert, Tarja sat down beside my mom to watch it (???), I was the one showing Tutu the backstage (as if he has never been there before…) and I was eating fruit (probably stolen from the backstage! =P)! I’ve realized after this dream that my fave fruit is ‘Tutu Frutti’. ^^

So after a while we were in a hospital and I was breast-feeding a baby! =O And it was mine!!! =O=O=O See what happens after eating the forbidden fruit? =P Not to mention they were twin babies (proving the fruit to be excellent quality =P – and proving that genes of twins do stick to other generations, right Wiwi? =D)

Ah well, I’m too bored to talk about dreams, so I’ll just talk a bit about my very super great tarot course. It rules! =D When you think you’ve seen it all, a tarot course comes to amaze you to death. My tarot pack, ‘Tarot of the Old Path’, happens to be a Cabala Tarot set, and no one at the store warned me about it. It’s cool though, as it has the same number of cards as the regular tarot. It looks very witchy (makes me wonder what Cabala has to do with witches), and all that differs it from a classic tarot set are 2 figures which happen to be swapped.

Hm, don’t wanna talk about tarot anymore. Let’s talk about mobiles. Why can’t I sms people to the rest of the world? Or even send e-mails? I can message anyone in Brazil both by e-mail and sms (and even if it’s a hotmail address!!!), but why the heck can’t I send people abroad a message? =( Well, at least I can call them. =P

Enough of mobiles, let’s talk about Angelina Jolie, Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise. Tom seems to suck nowadays. What is this pseudo-medicine thingy about psychology anyway? Is he mad of has Katie Holmes turned his head so much that his brain has leaked? And what about a probable pregnancy of Angelina and Brad? They’re not even dating, for gods’ sake! See what I mean about forbidden fruit, everyone? =P

EPISODE:
So here I am at work, listening to this very boring radio station with really old songs, when I caught myself thinking ‘how cool it would be if only I had the guts to quit this job, get all my stuff, move to Holland for 2 years and do a masters degree in Housing Technology, learn other languages, feel free, have my own place and arrange things my way…’ when Roxxette’s ‘Listen to your heart’ starts to play. Must admit I’m not on ‘=P’ mode, but ‘=S’.


Monday - 04/07/05
Title:
NP: silence... *writing from work again* =P

HEY!
I must say I feel great! Not because life’s too cool, but because it can be so cool sometimes. It’s like the light at the end of the tunnel.

Today I started a new sort of work at my job. It consists in modifying the Acad blocks we have in our library. It works like this: there’s a data bank of blocks we use more often, such as drawings of furniture, equipments, etc. Since I work at a furniture representation/architecture office, we usually need drawings that are already finished to insert in new projects/drawings/floor plans files. It would take too long if we had to draw them every time we had a new project, so we have a data bank/library to make things easier and faster.

The data bank we have today is a complete mess, so we needed someone to correct those drawings, make new codes for them, etc. Who did they pick for such ‘wonderful’ task? Ana – the idiot and the youngest of the department (literally the one who ‘must’ follow the rules and ‘shouldn’t’ bellyache about them).

I’m starting those corrections today and I just found out there are ‘ONLY’ 22.128 blocks to be fixed, meaning it’ll take at least 3 months to correct them all. Ain’t it a huge crap? Yes, it is, since I’ve started at this job to learn some architecture, and not Acad tools and commands.

Anyway… that’s ok because (great news to follow):
1) I started my diet today and I really mean it this time. I even brought my lunch from home not to get tempted by the delicious chocolate/lemon pies at the restaurant.
2) It’s cold again!!!
3) My dad’s going to China soon and he’ll bring me a camcorder, which will be wonderfully used when:
4) I travel to Europe next year! YES, I’m going back there again, finally!!! =D

I’m so excited about all those that this crappy job is just for money right now. I don’t give a damn about what I’m doing at work, as long as it provides me all the money I need for this trip. And guess what? Barbara, my cousin, is going with me!!! It’ll be a fun trip for sure, can’t wait! Not to mention I’ll meet some wonderful people. Gosh, I’m finally gonna meet part of my Savage family. How wonderful is that? =D

The trip schedule is being done and I hope to have it ready soon. There’s so much to learn understand before I head off to the wonderful Europe!

Okay, I’ll shush for now as I’m too excited and I don’t want to spoil this trip. Keep it in mind: I’m going!!! Now forget about all this, make it a secret and pretend I never told you that! ^^ =P

EPISODE: So I came home with this trip idea, started to look for details about what to do while I’m there and after so long without an invitation for any kind of trip at all I hear these: ‘Ana, we’re off to Ireland next year and we want you to join us’ – by my master in the witchcraft course. ‘Ana, we’re off to Chapada dos Guimarães during the next holiday and we want you to join us’ – by my cousin Bruno. All I can think right now is ‘=P’


Tuesday - 05/07/05
Title: Happy Happy Ana
NP: KYO – DENIÈRE DANSE

HI BLOOOOG!!!

Yes, I’ve been having crazy days!!! Today is the second day of my stupid slave task at work. Not bad, mind you! =) It’s annoying, lame, but at least it’s so mechanical that I can leave at 18:00 and nobody annoys me for that! =D I’m so happy!!!

So today at lunch I went to Ibirapuera Park. Got my car, drove for 5 minutes and go there. Parked right in front of the ‘Oca’ – museum designed by Oscar Niemeyer, wonderful Brazilian architect – opened my lunch box and ate the very delicious meal prepared by my good mother (she even chopped up the beefs so I didn’t have to use a knife! =P Damn, she spoils me!).

As I started to eat, the rain began to fall. Temperature dropped from 25C to 18C (YESSS!!!) and it was cute to see all the birds reaching the grass to pick up small pieces of fallen branches to build their nests. Kyo was playing on the radio and for a sec I pictured myself somewhere cold in France. Ah, I’m such an anxious thing! No wonder why my Maltesers are all gone by now! =P

After my daily 1,5hours of lunch, and my very delicious strawberry pack, I returned to the office to find it with no water and no network connection. Btw, here I am, at 15:00, writing this post because I have absolutely nothing to do! =D

Broke the diet today – yeah, already! But for a good cause: to celebrate such a happy day; =D

Hm, I guess this is it. I’ll finish this post here and talk to you people soon. Stay well! =D

PS: I apologize for the lack of lyrics today, but although I do have the lyrics for ‘Danière Danse’ here, I do have no clue of what it means, so I won’t post it today. =P


Wednesday - 06/07/05
Title: *HOPE*
NP: SONATA ARCTICA – MY LAND

Because there has been a lack of EPISODES here, I’ve decided to post about it today.

EPISODE: here I am, sitting in my car having lunch at the park when:
- Sonata starts playing on the radio;
- a plane flies by;
- 2 cars park beside me and a bunch of white people with blond hair come out of them speaking weird with a guide on their hands;
- one of the car has its board ID = ‘FUI’ (meaning ‘gone’ in Portuguese);
- the other car has the board ID = ‘CYA’;
- I decide to pick a tarot card to see my luck of the day and it says ‘wheel of fortune’ in it – which means good changes, fortune itself;
- the horoscope says ‘Lucky day, enjoy!’;
- it’s 18C cold and rainy
- I call airline companies to discover I CAN afford a nice trip
- my final graduation project has a chance to be ‘alive’ in a friend’s computer
- I’m wearing blue and eating strawberries!!!

Ok, hope is there all sweet smiling at me and because of all those signs above I’m smiling back. Sounds like there’s not a light in the end of the tunnel, but a whole store of lights! It’s as if it’s the sun itself! ^^

Now I must go back to work or I’ll get trapped inside my fate. See ya soon! =D