Plant a tree and get a bird for free...

NP: Nightwish – ‘Away’


Back to my normal routine, I am.

I have no idea how things come up to what they do, but this weekend things proved to be really wonderful to me. I had so many mixed up feelings that I don’t even know how to explain them. In fact, I won’t.

Good Friday, a day to celebrate cod and other fishes in the Brazilian cuisine. If it wasn’t for the fact that I hate fish, I’d celebrate it too, even though I’m not a Christian. So for me it’s just another Omelet day. There are of course other things we shouldn’t do on a Good Friday, such as make noise, work, and other cool things.

What I really hate about Good Friday is that the rest of my family (actually not even the great majority), celebrates it, when I don’t. So it’s as if I’m the only one breaking the rules and eating meat, meowing at the cat, listening to Evergrey and being annoying.

So we got to my grannies’ city and I went with my dad and uncle straight to the farm to check the details to plant my beloved trees. It was a nice lil’ trip to the farm; pleasant and not as hot as usual. It was already around 18:00 and it was getting dark quick, so we had to do it all quick.

When we got to the farm the first thing we spotted was a black cat near the house, MWAHAHAAAA! On a Good Friday it can only mean luck (for a pagan, hehe). After that, this whole trip to the countryside was just full of mystery and signals, which must be studied in detail.

For a start, I felt a huge chill when I entered the farm, as if my grandfather was there too. That would be 3 generations of the Rampim family, all Earth signs. Yep, I’m pretty sure it was him, and he did manage to grab a drop of tear from me and give me a smile right after it.

The house in the farm is at a higher place and I had decided that I wanted to plant the trees next to the river, which is at a lower piece of ground. Nice spot, we picked. As soon as we agreed on the right spot to plant them, 3 black birds flew by, as if they were agreeing with the spot too and giving their blessing.

So it wasn’t that easy to make this plantation! First the spot we’ve picked was full of bushes and scrubs, so we had to clean that first. Then my uncle said we should also make a boundary so that the cattle and the horses wouldn’t damage and eat the trees. So we came up with the idea of hiring a man to do that, as it would be too much work and we wouldn’t be able to handle it in just one holiday.

So that was it, it was settled! We needed a guy to put a fence and we’d be fine and able to take off the bushes, make holes and plant the trees. So we started figuring out where to plant them in the area we’ve chosen and a yellow butterfly passed by and led us to the middle of the circle, and landed there. When we reached it, it flew away and we found the centre of the circle where it was. We marked it, got happy and noticed a black ox starring at us. He stopped starring at us, as if he was just calling our attention, and looked at a mare. That’s when we realized the mare had a swelling on her belly, and my uncle soon said ‘Oh, she was bitten by a snake!!!’, and we all went ‘=S, okay where is it???’, but the snake never appeared (thank Gods!).

So that was it. Place found and we figured out how it would be, so we went back home to come back early the next day and start our cool planting project. And that was a good Friday gone.

So Saturday was an early start! I had a terrible night and didn’t sleep well at all because I, mom and dad slept in the same room and my mom was coughing all night. It was not a hot night, but that room was hot and it made it even worse for me to sleep. Sleeping troubles aside, Saturday started.

We hired this old man, wonderful person, to put a fence around the circle. Jose was such a sweetie. When we asked if he would take the job, he said ‘of course I will.’ And it was Easter weekend! I just loved that will to make things nice for the others, that sense of friendship that no one has anymore nowadays. Such an old man, such a strength and such a will to live and feel alive! So he needed half a day to make that fence and he did a great job!

We left the farm and went for a celebration at an aunt’s house in another city. The entire family was there and it was the farewell party for my cousin who’s going to spend one year in the USA. Suddenly one of my cousins started crying, and I had to follow her… next thing we see is everybody was crying! Damn, Madonna was right! The power of goodbye is a hell of a huge thing! =P

So after that (and a lot of food) we went back to the farm to mark the holes on the ground. That was done quite fast and we soon could go back home and rest. There was a black cat at my granny’s house too, which kicked ass again!

It was a pleasant night full of stars and a full moon. My cousin had his telescope there and we were watching Saturn and its rings and it felt so perfect in a harvest time such as this autumn.

So I laid on the hammock and watched the stars for a while longer, feeling this wonderful cold breeze from wherever it was coming, and this U2 song I love so much (With or Without You) was playing in the middle of the city square. Suddenly my aunt’s cat rubbed herself on my hand and I cuddled it while watching the stars, listening to U2 and feeling the cold breeze… Awesome night.

So Sunday was there already. Another bad night sleep and I was waking up early again! This time to go milk the cow with my other uncle and my 2 little cousins (my cousin’s kids, actually). It was fun as always and I was even wearing my jacket, so cold it was! Awesome morning! And awesome hot milk straight from the cow to make us feel warm enough. =)

Back to the farm with uncle and dad for the last bit of this plantation project. It was a grey day, with a little bit of rain at times. Inside one of the stumps that were holding the fence there was a tiny and muddy tree frog hidden and we made it jump out of there before it got hurt. It was so cute and tiny I could have cuddled it.

But the best thing of the day was definitely when we finished making the holes in the ground and placed the trees beside the holes where they’d be planted. We finished that and suddenly we heard this noise coming from the sky and we realized they were white herons passing by talking REALLY loud, and somehow something made me count how many they were… and they were 18. I was ‘=O’, looked at my dad and he had counted them too and he replied ‘=O =S’ and we just couldn’t believe that. 18 birds for 18 trees… That was just the best of the Easter gifts.

The rest of the day was just about food, chocolate and spending time with the family (and laughing about one of my cousins who hit a pole while riding his bike because he was starring at the moon - how cute is that? And, no, he wasn’t drunk or high ^^). Aye, I come from a pack of moon admirers and I couldn’t be happier about it.

So that was my Easter holiday. Full of mystery, signs and trees which are now part of a lovely and swampy spot in the middle of a farm in the middle of nowhere. And may they be alright for good and remain there even when I’m gone.


'The days were brighter
Gardens more blooming
The nights had more hope
In their silence
The wild was calling
Wishes were whispering
The time was there
But without a meaning

Away, away in time
Every dream's a journey away
Away to a home away from care
Everywhere’s just a journey away

The days departed
Gardens deserted
This frail world
My only rest?
The wild calls no more
Wishes so hollow
The Barefoot Boy
Weeping in an empty night

Away ...

Cherish the moment
Tower the skies
Don't let the dreamer
Fade to grey like grass
No falling for life
A gain for every loss
Time gathered me
But kept me flying

"For this gift of dream I must pay the price with the loss of life's pleasures"'

‘Happy Ana’s Favorite Holiday’

NP: Silence...


Uh, I’m bored. I think I need an excitement injection ASAP!
I’ve taken a week or so off from what I was doing to take care of my wisdom tooth. Why do we have wisdom teeth anyway? And I have a really complex doubt: do we gain wisdom when the teeth go away, or does the wisdom go with the teeth? I’m so confused. Actually I think I’m dumb, so maybe the wisdom does go with the teeth. Which sucks! I hate giving pieces of myself for nothing, let alone wisdom I praise so much. I feel sad. =(

I found out recently I suck in English (and German, and Italian, and… Portuguese). Gosh, I hate that. I used to be such a great student, I got the best grades in every course I took of it and now I’m useless. Well, I’m not thaaaat useless, as I think you guys can still understand what I say here, but I was way much better than this, and I miss my Aquarius days. I think I hate a little the fact that I’m now moving into my Taurus days… it means so much in coolness, but it certainly means dumbness and laziness ahead. DOES IT MEAN MORE THAN THIS? Only if I die. *sigh* =/

So this week was supposed to be a kick ass one: full of nothing, full of chocolate and full of countryside… The nothingness is indeed happening! The chocolate is going away as I eat it and the countryside is still far from me. =(

I totally despise change of plans. I’m a Taurean and I can’t accept easily that things are changed. I hate it when people say ‘let’s do this’ and they end up doing that instead. I get cranky! I get annoyed and the entire world should know it by now, as the entire world knows I can’t get over Tuomas. The entire world also knows I want to live in England and every time the entire world meets me they ask ‘hey, how’s it going? Is your Italian passport done yet?’ and I go ‘even you know that???’… Worst thing is that it’s always a ‘no, it’s not done yet’. The seasons are changing and so are my dreams. Soon I’ll want to live in Finland with Tuomas, and not in England anymore. I’m almost done with England by now. =(

So Mike is coming to see me. That’s something to look forward to. Wiwi was here and it kicked ass, and I’m sure it’ll be as cool with Mike. Mike does pull more faces, so I don’t know if I’ll laugh more at his pulling faces or at Wiwi saying ‘.com.br’. =P I’m happy, friend wise. My friends are all cool and sweet. But there are some of them with whom I’m totally fed up! They don’t care, they just seem to be around, but they’re actually not, some are too busy and when they need something, they’re not anymore… ya know, the usual bullshit. So I’m choosing well who to talk to lately!

But I’m quite happy to what concerns my foreign friends. I’m even going to make a live memorial on their behalf so we can celebrate our friendship. Some of them I haven’t spoken for ages, and some of them I talk to every day, but they’re all priceless in their own way. =)

I’m just sick of bastardness. But I know what it is. It’s Astral Hell. Hell, yeah, I’ve been expecting it. Thought I could spend a year without it, totally escape from the bitchness of this process and move on with my nice life. All sorts of pain have recently erupted, all sorts of invasions have been happening and all sorts of pledges have been falling apart. I’m so sick of it all.

So to make it a happy post, I’ll just add a ‘Happy Ana’s Favorite Holiday’ to everyone who reads the blog and waits impatiently and anxiously (a lot of people seem to be affected by anxiety nowadays =P) for an update. As one of my ex-bosses daughter used to say: ‘Mom, can we go live in Easter?’, here’s a Happy Easter for you people. No music today, only silence and meditation.